I couldnt help myself but this matter keep playing in mind right now. so gonna blog abt it;hoping will feel much better after this. Sorry but i couldnt help myself as well for not being emotional. I AM THAT EMOTIONAL!!
How nice if i owned a turnback time machine and fly back to the year of 1998. You must be thinking why? why 1998? coz I wan to feel young again? errr to experience once again how a 15-yr-old high school girl lived her life? how she and 2 of her good frens will sit in Marrybrown and crying like hell and ended up giving ppl some stupid idea that we got dumped on V-day? (I can read their expressions very well)
1998 is the saddest year ever that I had to go through. not only had to struggle with studies but also having him departed.
him- the person who spent most of his time taking care of me when i first came to this world...cradled me to sleep - morning, noon, nap, night... walked me to my nursery school and waited whole day there 'coz i never wanted him to leave me alone... he gave me his love to me...
the only thing i wish i could do for him is to spend more time with him, never ever throw my tantrums on him, spend more time with him... talk to him more often.... but, i guess it's too late now!
It's so painful to watch the person you care n love the most leave you...
even more painful when he was the one telling you not to tears for him...
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Why we were crying like mad girls in Marrybrown? My fault. Because I started to cry when I saw an old man who accidentally spilled his drink on to the floor and he was alone. ALL ALONE! where the hell were his children??? #$%$%$ (dunno if he has any though) but i DUN CARE!!! No ones were there for him; I started missing him; he is all alone in his new world too. No ones is there for him as well. Missing him like hell. Wondering, if he got all the letters that I wrote to him? is he doing good there? got to noe any new frens? been to any new places? lotsa stuff i wanted to ask n tell him... wanted to share my joy with him (he's the one who was always so interested abt my report card results) Okay, got the rest of the girls in a total shocked when hot tears started streaming down. What happened next? 3 of us cried like mad girls there lo… very embarassing! arrrgggghhhhh butI DUN CARE!
Well, I can’t do anything now… what I can do now is spending more time with people I do care n love n of course those are still alive. Never be afraid or ashamed to express my love to them- physically… ie I started to hug everyone in my family… they think I was crazy and something’s wrong with me but I don’t give a shit ‘coz I don’t want to make the same mistake ever again -guess they can live with now?!! >:)
him make me realised we should always slow down, take a break n look at people around us.. show them love and care... life - can be long and it can be very short too... you will never noe what u will miss. So, y not live your life to the fullest with people you care n love. Treasure every little single sec u have with them...Always appreciate every little single thing that they’ve done for you.
situations happened:
What if they pissed you off??
BE MORE PATIENT la sayang
What if they verbally hurt ur feeling?
I am sure they didn’t do it on purpose right? So, BE PATIENT la
Ok, what if they are really over acting? Nag you kao kao.. bising here n there… they mind your business?balblabala....??
Ok then… send them to old folks home!! habis cerita
JUST JOKING! THIS IS NOT THE WAY YOU SHOULD REACT! PATIENT IS THE KEY INGREDIENT. Believe me, I am practicing it. Living together with a mom who is behaving like a kid… you know I need “PATIENT”.. loads of it
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